I had quite the journey to get to where I am today and I’d like to share some of my experiences. From the time that I was a child I had a connection with “God” or “Spirit”. I love those security questions when signing up for Internet Banking and other secure accounts. They usually ask something like “who was your childhood hero” or “who was your favorite teacher”. My answer is always Jesus. While I don’t consider myself associated with a particular religion, I do consider myself a very spiritual person.
As a child I attended church every week with my family. I was not particularly fond of the preparation but I loved Sunday school and loved the story-telling time. That is where I learned perhaps the strongest message Jesus gave. It was “love your neighbor as yourself”. But that’s a different topic than what I want to address today.
I was a curious child (aren’t we all). In school I learned about science and geography. These combined together with my spiritual education provided fuel for my questioning mind. After learning how large the world was in my geography class, I asked my mother, “How can God be everywhere?” I was about 12 years old at the time and I don’t remember how she answered me. What I do remember is how I contemplated this idea over and over. And one day I received an answer when I combined geography with science and my belief in God.
While walking around outside I often would sing to myself. I would make up songs about love and sing them to God and/or Jesus. I would look at everything and feel the love that emanated from inside of me. Often I emulated what I imagined Jesus would do. After all, he was connected to “the Father”. And I wanted to be like Jesus. So I often imagined what that would be like.
One day while I was contemplating God being everywhere, singing to Jesus and looking at all of Nature in my surroundings I had a spiritual revelation. I was contemplating the invisible molecules and atoms I was learning about in science class. I had learned that the substance of molecules were protons, electrons, and neutrons. The protons and neutrons are in the middle and the electrons orbit around that center. I also learned that there is a great deal of space between the electrons in orbit and the protons and neutrons in the center.
As I walked around in Nature on this day, I could almost see each molecule and the “space” between every molecule in the air. All of the space between molecules and inside of the molecules seemed to be charged with light. Even though I pictured molecules similar to the pictures I had seen of outer space where there is a lot of darkness, I perceived the space between electrons and protons/neutrons to be light and energy. In my inner vision I could see how much “light” and “space” there really was in the world. It went on and on. The molecules in the air I was breathing. The molecules in the earth under my feet had lots of space. The space between the very large molecule of our solar system, with the sun in the middle and all the planets orbiting around it, was vast.
All of it was sparkling light. I could almost see God smiling at me. All of a sudden it was clear to me – this light and space was God. In that moment God was everywhere for me. It is difficult for me to describe this in words that effectively paint a picture of the depth and breadth of my experience. For now, this is the best that I can do. It is still just as clear to me today as it was all those years ago.